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Saturday, December 1, 2018

Release Event | Refusing To Sink by Rae-Beth McGee-Buda @raebethmcgee


Book Title:  Refusing To Sink

Author: RaeBeth McGee-Buda

Genre: Christian Contemporary 

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Lily lost her beloved second daughter years ago and was determined to spend every waking moment making memories with Hope and Jax. Christmas was no exception and a favored holiday. However, Lily's faith was shaken and left in pieces when tragedy struck; leaving Hope battered and in a coma. On Christmas Eve after a month of no improvement and Hope's health declining, doctor's suggest taking her off of life support. Lily was devastated and questioned everything she believed in life; including God.

Twelve years old, Hope enters into a paradise she had heard of so many times in her life. While there, she meets the One who knows all and controls all. She meets some unexpected people while learning of her life's important purpose; to help her mother truly find the love of the Lord.

Why would he love Lily so much but put her through so much heartache by taking another child away? Why would God give such an important task to such a young girl who had so much to learn about life? Would each of them learn to live with the differences set before them in life?




GRAB YOUR E-COPY TODAY ON AMAZON FOR ONLY $.99!!!

Tuesday, November 13, 2018

Preorders are OPEN!!!

Hey guys,

I'm excited to announce that Refusing To Sink is available for preorder.
That means you can have it on your Kindle the moment it releases!! How awesome is that?

It's quick and easy. Just follow the link below to preorder your copy today!



Book Description: 


Lily lost her beloved second daughter years ago and was determined to spend every waking moment making memories with Hope and Jax. Christmas was no exception and a favored holiday. However, Lily's faith was shaken and left in pieces when tragedy struck; leaving Hope battered and in a coma. On Christmas Eve after a month of no improvement and Hope's health declining, doctor's suggest taking her off of life support. Lily was devastated and questioned everything she believed in life; including God.

Twelve years old, Hope enters into a paradise she had heard of so many times in her life. While there, she meets the One who knows all and controls all. She meets some unexpected people while learning of her life's important purpose; to help her mother truly find the love of the Lord.

Why would he love Lily so much but put her through so much heartache by taking another child away? Why would God give such an important task to such a young girl who had so much to learn about life? Would each of them learn to live with the differences set before them in life?



Click here to preorder!!!

Saturday, October 13, 2018

{COVER REVEAL} Refusing To Sink by RaeBeth McGee-Buda





Oh my gosh!! 
The past few weeks have been super crazy but I'm happy to slow
down a bit to enjoy this reveal with you. This upcoming novella
is a short Christian read and is perfect for Christmas. The cover was created
by EmCat Designs and it's absolutely beautiful. 


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COMING December 1st.
Description for Refusing to Sink:

Christmas: a time thought to be full of love, joy, and celebration.
Lily lost her beloved second daughter years ago and was determined to spend every waking moment making memories with Hope and Jax. Christmas was no exception and a favored holiday. However, Lily's faith was shaken and left in pieces when tragedy struck; leaving Hope battered and in a coma. On Christmas Eve after a month of no improvement and Hope's health declining, doctor's suggest taking her off of life support. Lily was devastated and questioned everything she believed in life; including God.
Twelve years old, Hope enters into a paradise she had heard of so many times in her life. While there, she meets the One who knows all and controls all. She meets some unexpected people while learning of her life's important purpose; to help her mother truly find the love of the Lord.
Why would he love Lily so much but put her through so much heartache by taking another child away? Why would God give such an important task to such a young girl who had so much to learn about life? Would each of them learn to live with the differences set before them in life?

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What do you think?

I am super excited about this release and I can't wait until you get to read it. 
Beta readers are welcome to contact me if interested in doing a beta read for me. 

Friday, October 5, 2018

Refusing To Sink Release Information

Hey readers,

Things have been crazy here with writing. I'm in the process of writing FOUR books at one time. 
But I am happy to announce that one of these books will be in your hands OR on your Kindle very soon. 

I've been working on a novella for you and it'll be available on DECEMBER 1ST!!!

Keep reading to find out more about this emotional read coming your way.....

hi (from my daughter)

Anywho...

The cover reveal will be on October 13th. I absolutely love this one and I think 
Emcat Designs did an amazing job once again.  

Here's the description for you to learn a bit more about this new read.

Christmas: a time thought to be full of love, joy, and celebration.
Lily lost her beloved second daughter years ago and was determined to spend every waking moment making memories with Hope and Jax. Christmas was no exception and a favored holiday. However, Lily's faith was shaken and left in pieces when tragedy struck; leaving Hope battered and in a coma. On Christmas Eve after a month of no improvement and Hope's health declining, doctor's suggest taking her off of life support. Lily was devastated and questioned everything she believed in life; including God.
Twelve years old, Hope enters into a paradise she had heard of so many times in her life. While there, she meets the One who knows all and controls all. She meets some unexpected people while learning of her life's important purpose; to help her mother truly find the love of the Lord.
Why would he love Lily so much but put her through so much heartache by taking another child away? Why would God give such an important task to such a young girl who had so much to learn about life? Would each of them learn to live with the differences set before them in life?

There you have it. 
I'm super excited about this one. 
It's a Contemporary Christian read that is packed with emotion!!

Stay tuned for the cover reveal and any other sneak peeks on my Facebook page, Twitter, and Instagram. 💓

Causes and more...

October is a great month. 
Leaves change as Fall arrives.
But most of all...
It's a time to bring awareness!!

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month
Wave of Light- October 15th. 

This month I remember my angel daughter, Dakota. On May 27, 2013 
my life changed forever when I gave birth to my second child who unfortunately
didn't make it. She was stillborn. Read more about 
her life as I honor her life in 
"Saying Goodbye Without Saying Hello."

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You were not a "lost pregnancy" or a "stillborn" as some have described you. You were not a sad thing that happened to us or a tragic circumstance.
You were a baby, my baby, our baby!
A human being.
AND YOU STILL ARE!!!
Saying Goodbye Without Saying Hello is...
The journey of pregnancy brings hope, joy, and love for the expecting mother. The hope of giving birth to a new life. The joy of feeling this new life growing inside of her. The love that starts with a test that doesn’t ever end. Dreams for the unborn child flood the new mother’s mind, as well as those around her. Each step of the pregnancy is a cherished moment.
The anticipation of meeting her cherished baby builds from the very first month and ends after birth.
This is the story of one mother and how a few words changed her life forever. How a piece of her faded when she heard these words: “There’s no heartbeat.”
When RaeBeth Buda laid in the hospital in labor, she and her husband heard those dreaded words.
What happens when all of those dreams are shattered in a moment’s notice? How does one cope with the loss of their child? This is the story of their journey and of the devastating grief of the loss of her daughter, Dakota Emily Buda.
PURCHASE HERE:
AMAZON: https://goo.gl/ygS5UG
WALMART: https://goo.gl/qG6N8N (paperback)


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October is also Breast Cancer Awareness Month. I and several other authors have come together to offer you this anthology full of stories dedicated to breast cancer. In addition, all proceeds from this book are donated to cancer research. Check out more details below.



When life seems perfect, a storm moves in and rocks our world, turning it upside down. Some are harder to weather than others, but what happens when the worst occurs? Do you give up or do you face it without wavering? 

Ink For Pink is an HEA collection of short breast cancer stories that show the worst possible storm these fabulous characters can face while not giving up hope. 

They didn't have to go through it alone, and neither do you. Ink For Pink, an army united in pink! 

Grab your copy today on Amazon

Wednesday, August 29, 2018

Wrapping up the Summer

Hey readers,

Wow, it has been such a long time. I promise I haven't given up. After my health issues, my family and I took our first family vacation to Myrtle Beach, which was exactly what we needed. So after taking the summer off, I'm back going in full swing. As of today, I am working on a new and updated writing schedule that INCLUDES release dates. Once these are set in stone, I'll make several announcements. 

As usual, if you want to look behind the scenes, feel free to join me in my private group on Facebook! 

It's great to be back and I hope ya'll are ready for some readin'!

Have a wonderful day and I pray everyone has a safe/blessed school year!

Sunday, June 10, 2018

June Updates

Happy Sunday all..

I apologize for the lack of vlogs and Friday Sneak Peeks. Life has really
been a struggle for me lately. I have something going on health-wise. Doctors
think it's my gallbladder but they're unsure at the moment. 

I am doing my best to continue writing in my book, Fumbled Faith but it's
going really slow. I'm hoping to get some answers back after going in for testing later this
week. Please keep me in your prayers as this has been a painful journey with no way to control
it. 

As soon as I get myself back on track, I'll return to the video's and sharing a small bit of content.

Thank you for taking the time to read this. I appreciate each one of you who stops by
and hangs out with me for a few minutes. 

Sincerely,
RaeBeth

Thursday, May 10, 2018

Lovely Tidbits and Whatnot

So 2018 hasn't been to kind to me in regards to my books and writing.

 I've had a trying year. An unexpected move. Death of a distant friend (close at one time), my daughter's 5th birthday in Heaven, and my grandfather's 1st anniversary in Heaven. Now that things have settled here I am able work on getting things caught up and another book from my list published.

What can you expect in the near future?

Well, at this time I am diving back into the plotting/writing of Fumbled Faith. Due to a recent poll on my Facebook page, readers picked this book as my next release. Yay!! Starting today, I'll be doing a read-through to refresh myself of the details already written and then continuing the plot/writing of the book. As I get closer to the final draft, I'll announce the publication date. Until then, keep checking back for sneak previews of the book and any other tidbits I may share.

If you're one for giveaways and exclusive content while showing your support for small authors like myself, feel free to join my closed group on Facebook.

Question for the readers in the world, what is the ONE thing you look for in an author that pulls you in and keeps you going back for more from the said author?

Question for Authors: How is it that you make sure you're reaching the right audience?

Send me your thoughts, questions, or comments below or email them to raebeth.buda@gmail.com


Saturday, March 17, 2018

COVER REVEAL: #loveyoumore

Happy St. Patrick's Day.
Let's celebrate today with a COVER REVEAL.
(It's also my Momma's birthday today!!!)




COVER CREATED BY EmCat Designs
Genre: Christian Romance
Release Date: To be Announced


BOOK DESCRIPTION:

Strong-minded and independent, Colonia had life in order. A set plan; to rid herself of her dark past, to allow no man to control her, and become the next best-selling author.

Meeting Tyler changed it all. Charismatic. Sexy and a Marine stationed in Iraq, Tyler was set to come back to the states where Colonia would finally meet him in person.

After the first meet and greet, Colonia fell fast and their relationship went into turbo mode. Moving in together, becoming engaged, and a baby on the way, Colonia felt life was finally in order. However, she slowly learned Tyler had a dark, hidden side. The side of him that made her second guess everything; including herself. His manipulation, lies, and deceit made Colonia feel defenseless. Life took an unexpected turn that pushed Colonia back in church and seeking God's guidance.

She dreaded the thought of leaving but was terrified of the thought of spending the rest of her life without him.

Shamefully, her past was in the past until it reappeared in different ways. Colonia turned to God in hopes of finding direction.


Will she take the chance of leaving or fight for the man she loves?

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Stay up to date and get all the news about this upcoming novel on RaeBeth's Facebook

Friday, March 9, 2018

Sneak Peek Friday: Captured (Working Title)

* This is unedited *

Captured, the title may change and there's no set date as to when this book will be published. 
At this time there are two more in front of it that I'm aiming to publish first. 

Without further ado, here is this week's sneak peek...

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The United States isn’t what it was before. Life had changed so much in five years. The world we once knew was all but gone. It didn’t take long for everything to fall apart after the last nuclear war took place, which was the start of the most devastating, deadly disasters known to mankind. The war between several countries within Asia had marked the beginning. I don’t know whose bright idea it was to drop a medium-range missile into the mix. The entire North Korean country wiped itself out, leaving the rest of the world to deal with their mess. They described this war as the Holy War.

Surprisingly, the United States didn’t get involved this round. I believe that was because they were using the natural disasters as a cover for what they were planning to do to their own people. The bomb was detonated slightly above ground within the southern parts of Asia. The heat and extreme light scorched everything. As it had been said on the news, the air was all but sucked up leaving the area extremely dry, which caused the fires. The missile had the range of about six hundred miles. Japan and surrounding countries reported the first-hand damage and feeling the shock wave. It leveled buildings and homes. Cars were thrown like paper in the wind. Millions of people were injured and the death toll has soared.

It caused one of many tremendous earthquakes. The biggest came in at a 9.2 on the scale off the coast of South Korea. In response to this massive earthquake, it triggered a tsunami and released underwater landslides, which wiped out Japan. North America and British Columbia were hit by a tsunami and earthquakes were triggered along the fault lines of the west coast of our country. The West coast of the United States suffered radiation and water poisoning.

In the meantime, the President of the United States took action against the destruction. Natural disasters struck one right after another. The government pushed through martial law and created an entirely new world for Americans. The bad part of all of this was that I had been forced to be someone I wasn’t for survival. My name is Chase Hamilton. I am a Navy Seal and this is my story.

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What do you think of this preview? Tell me your thoughts below. 

Wednesday, March 7, 2018

Rambling with RaeBeth: More questions answered

I had so much fun with last week's vlog answering questions, I've decided to continue this week and answer a few more.


In honor of Women's Day,
Tell me who is an important woman in your life. 

Friday, March 2, 2018

Sneak Peek Friday: Fumbled Faith

Another Friday... 
Another Preview.
This week I am spotlighting Fumbled Faith, a Christian contemporary romance novel that is emotional and full of ups/downs!!




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The sun shined brightly even though the wind was unpleasant at first. The cold didn’t bother me much anymore with all the time I’ve spent outside in it. Laughter came from a small family walking down the other side of the street, while city officials hung Valentine hearts on the lamp posts, preparing for the upcoming holiday. The city around me was offensively bright and cheerful. It showed me that the world had no problem moving on and they’d continue without my precious daughter and wife. I wanted to yell and scream that it wasn’t right, and they can’t forget them. Everything should have been gray and foggy as my emotions, it should have been emotionless and silent. However, even the birds happily sat in the snow-covered trees singing out their songs of joy while the squirrels cared for their babies. I walked through the streets as if I were a silhouette of nothingness, wishing I was the one in the grave. My insides felt mangled and tired from the past three days of a constant nightmare I wished I could have been awakened from. Now, Grace and Lexi were gone, and their lights had been extinguished forever in this world but would remain burning brightly within my heart.

Thursday, March 1, 2018

Self Harm Awareness Month

Welcome, March!!! 
Who's excited that we are one month closer to SPRING!!!
Oh my gosh, I can't wait for spring to grace us so I can get my deep clean done in the apartment and start spending some time outside. 
Until then, I'm going to focus on a subject that is near and dear to my heart.
SELF HARM AWARENESS MONTH!!

If you don't know, I wrote the Silenced Series to help bring awareness to this condition to show that those who self-harm use it to cope 
in most cases and it's not to seek attention. If you haven't read Amber's story, you can pick your copy up on Amazon. 

During the month of March, I'll be centering my vlogs and blog posts around awareness and the Silenced Series. 

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Book Descriptions:

Silenced:
Amber Brown spent her entire existence believing Dave was her father. When her mother reveals this is untrue, she goes through an emotional spiral with depression. It's hard for her to believe her mother had lied to her all this time.

A move to a new home and town causes Amber to be consumed by her "darkness" and reverts to cutting to free herself from her pain.

When Casey, her new friend enters her life, she introduces Amber to parties, drugs, and Amber's new boyfriend Landon. The secret of cutting begins to take effect on Amber as she tries to hide it from her friends and family. In the midst of everything, Amber has the desire to find out who her biological father is.

Follow Amber through her trials of depression and cutting, along with the discovery of love.





The Overtaking:

In life when one thing goes wrong, it can feel like everything goes wrong. Secrets come to the surface while friendships twist out of control, romantic relationships end, and even a dear loved one can die!

In Silenced: The Overtaking Amber’s life turns to chaos when she finds out Sarah, her childhood friend dies suddenly, her stepfather reveals another devastating family secret, and her boyfriend begins pushing her away.

After all the truth comes out, Amber turns to her darkness for comfort when her worst fear becomes reality. Her secret with cutting is discovered when she loses control and ends up in the hospital. Amber’s long journey to recovery begins with a battle. While she’s fighting her way to freedom, she discovers the one love she’s been missing her entire life.

Will Amber overtake her darkness of cutting or will the darkness overtake her?


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Follow me through the month as I touch base and help bring awareness to self Harm!! 


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Wednesday, February 28, 2018

Rambling with RaeBeth: Likes and Dislikes

This episode is more on a personal level so readers can learn more about me as a person and what makes my world go around. Take a look.


What are some of your likes and dislikes?

Friday, February 23, 2018

Sneak Peek Friday: #loveyoumore

Welcome to the last Friday in February.
That means the last preview for #loveyoumore.
 (for now)

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If you're interested in more about what inspired me to write Tyler and Colonia's story, be sure to check out Wednesday's Vlog on my Youtube Channel or Facebook Page. 

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He looked into my eyes for a moment, studying my face. I couldn't help to notice how mysterious his eyes were up close. They looked as if they held secrets only he knew and only those who were privileged enough would know. He gently took my chin, guiding me to look up at him with his expression serious, "in answer to your question...yes, you do have something on your face." he finished.
I quickly swiped my hands over my face to try and rid whatever it was he was talking about. "I don't feel anything. Where is it?" I asked, unsure.
To my surprise, he leaned down and kissed the beads of water from my cheeks, left by the mist of the waterfall, and smiled. Pushing my frizzy hair aside, he gently kissed me. The water sprayed down on us as our lips danced, each of us tasting the cold drops. Instead of retracting from the force of the moment, it brought us to new heights. Tyler pushed his lips in more firmly and the waves of passion that ran through me were invigorating, making my head swim as I pulled back to take in his handsome face. He leaned in closer, our foreheads connecting. Dear God, I couldn't defend against him. He brushed his lips against mine, teasingly. I want to pull away before I lose control of the emotional wall I built over the past year.
My sanity has evaded and turned against me; opening up to his touch, kiss, and closeness. "Colonia," he whispers, prolonging each syllable as if to savor them. My heart flutters as I find myself smiling. I never thought it'd feel this wonderful to have someone say my name. As if I had no control, I leaned in for another kiss. As we kissed, the world around us fell away, making me forget where we were. It was slow and soft, comforting in ways that I never imagined. He had rested below my ear, his thumb caressing my cheek as our breaths mingled.
I ran my fingers down his muscular, wet back, pulling him closer until there was absolutely no space left between us. I could feel his heart beating against my chest.
He pulled away, "wow, that was something. I think we should...umm..look around some more."
"Of course! The sun will set in a little while. Don't wanna be lost in the woods then." I said, pulling myself back together.

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If you enjoyed this month's preview into Tyler and Colonia's world, let me know in the comments below. I'd love to hear from you. 

Wednesday, February 21, 2018

Rambling with RaeBeth: Inspiration behind #loveyoumore

Find out what brought #loveyoumore to life and 
my goals for the book below.


Let me know you were here by leaving any comments below...

Friday, February 16, 2018

Sneak Peek Friday: #loveyoumore

Can you believe we are already in week three of the month? It's going by so fast. But let's not let that bum us out because I have another preview for you today from #loveyoumore.

What are your thoughts on this book? Intrigued? Excited? Tell me more...

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I jerked awake in a panic to see what time it was. I didn't want to sleep in too much since Tyler was here. We only had the day left with each other before he had to pack up and head back to base. I wanted to spend as much time as possible with him, especially since I didn't know if he'd come back. That was what worried me. This man was perfect, but was I enough to keep him coming back?
I stepped out of the shower to the aroma of coffee wading through the air; followed by the smell of something delicious. My stomach gurgled in response. Once I was completely ready for the day, I joined Tyler downstairs. He was dressed in only his pajama pants and no shirt; which brought my attention to his muscular back.
"Good morning," I said, taking a deep breath. "Something smells good," I finished as I sat at the table.
"Good morning and I'm making you breakfast. I hope you like omelets." he turned to face me, "Oh, that cup is for you." he said, bringing my attention to the cup of coffee on the counter.
"You didn't have to do all of this," I said, my heart filled with appreciation.
"No biggie. Just thought you'd enjoy some of my grandmother's special omelets. Let me know what you think." he said, putting a plate in front of me.
It was huge and stuffed with onions, green peppers, tomatoes, and cheese. It smelled just as it tasted; delicious. "Hmmm," I said, showing him my liking to his breakfast.
"What's so special about them? Not to be mean, but you've made them exactly how I like them. The cheese isn't overbearing and I love the perfect taste of onions and peppers."
"See... if I told ya... I'd have to kill ya." he joked and then winked.
I rolled my eyes, "Whatever!" I said, popping a huge bite of food into my mouth.
"That's real ladylike... must make the guys come running."
I unsuccessfully tried to stick my tongue out at him. He burst out in laughter and sat down next to me to eat his breakfast. The laughing came out of nowhere and I could see by the look in Tyler's russet brown eyes. I folded my arms, eyebrows arched, waiting. Within moments, Tyler's laugh exploded like an opening of a water valve. I tried to keep a straight face, pushed my loose bangs behind my ear, and stood up to get more coffee.
"Where ya going?"
"What...I'm not allowed to have more coffee?" I sarcastically asked, pouring myself another cup.
"Nope." He laughed, getting up and coming over to me.
Suddenly, I found myself laughing with him as he tickled my sides. I waved my hands in the air as in a surrender. I tried to catch my breath and snorted in the process. Staring at him wide-eyed, shocked that I actually snorted, he started laughing. I tickled him back when I had a clear shot. With each surge of laughter, it released some of the tension I had hanging over me. It felt good to be filled with pure joy as we laughed. As soon as I was able to, I broke free and ran to the other room with him following close behind.
I tried to run from him by going around the coffee table, but I stubbed my toe instead and fell down on the couch. Rubbing my foot, I said, "Truce!"
"I'll give it to you this time. Next won't be so easy."

Wednesday, February 14, 2018

It's my favorite day of the year!!!

happy
valentine's
day!

What gift have you received in the past that you'll always remember?

I wouldn't say it's a gift I got but it's a gift I put a lot of thought and love in to. Several years ago, 
I got in touch with my crafty side and created a gift for my husband. It's by far my favorite. I used the lyrics of our wedding song and printed a few of them out. I cut small pieces of the lyrics out. I used one sheet of the lyrics and cut them into the shape of a tree with branches. Using yarn, I tied two 3-D hearts to one of the branches where the hearts looked as if they are swinging from the branch. Below you'll find the picture of this precious gift that I love so much. 

Tell me about your most memorable valentines day. 


Friday, February 9, 2018

Sneak Peek Friday: #loveyoumore

Love...

It's something most little girls dream of as they get older. We strive to find
the one for us to share life with as we get older. Once we find that one, it's pure bliss being with that person who understands us more than anyone and would go to whatever lengths for us. 

But what happens when that love was temporary? That's what Colonia asks herself in #loveyoumore. 

But before I get into that, why not enjoy a piece of her happiness?


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"I wanted to talk to you about something," his tone was completely serious.
I took a deep breath, "Okay. What's goin' on?"
"I'm a few week away from my four-year enlistment date in the Marines. I'm not reenlisting."
I was caught off guard. From all the conversations we've had over the past several months, I knew that being a Marine was more than just a way of life for him. It's who he was. It meant so much to him to be serving his country and the pride that generated from him when he talked about it, was impossible to miss. "Why? I thought you loved what you do?" I asked, confused.
"Well, I do but I love you more. I wanna spend the rest of my life with you. How does that sound?"
I widened my eyes while he stared at me; as if I'd just produced a snake out of my pocket, waiting for me to respond. I could imagine the thoughts going through his mind, desperately trying to make sense of my facial expressions as I processed what he just said. His smile slowly faded while his mouth remained as an aberrant bleak line along with the stubbles of hair starting to appear along his jawline.
When I spoke, my voice was shaky, "I'm not sure what to say." My voice trailed slowly like my words were unwilling to take flight.
"Well, letting me know if you wanna be with me would be a great place to start."
Instantly, I felt bad for allowing him to hang in limbo, but this wasn't something I had expected, nor thought about. He was an amazing guy; too perfect. However, I didn't expect those daydreams I've had to become reality so soon. Without any more delay, "Yes, I think I would be able to handle that," I blurted out.
"Good," he said, fidgeting with his cell phone. As my phone dinged, he added, "listen to that song I forwarded to you. It says it all."
"Now?" I asked confused. Never had someone ever expressed their feelings to me through music, something else added to the list of awesome when it came to this man.
"Yeah. Now."
I pulled my cell up in front of me and tapped the notification that showed Tyler's message. My phone opened my music app. It didn't take me long to recognize the song. It had been the same one that Tyler had playing in the car the last time he was here. "This song." I smiled, taking in the lyrics.
"I want you to be with me, Colonia. Life without you doesn't make sense. Now, I'm not sure if you heard me or what..." he moved closer, taking my hand, "but I'm madly in love with you. I've never been very good at expressing my feelings so bare with me." He ran his hands over his pant legs as he took another deep breath. "It's crazy. Whenever I try to tell you how I feel, my throat tightens, blocking me from saying anything. I always know what to say and it takes a lot to get me stopped up on what I want to say."
"I think you're doing a great job at it," I said, trying to boost his confidence.
He glanced up at me and smiled, "It doesn't take much for me to be able to read people like they're an open book. You are the only one that I have a hard time understanding. I love that and it's one of the qualities you have that drew me to you. I love how you play with your hair and bite your lip when you're nervous."
My heart felt as if it were going to leap out of my chest, as tears threatened to escape from my eyes. I intertwined my hands and played with the back of a ring my mother had given me when I turned sixteen to help with the overflow of feelings that were coursing throughout my body.
"...you're like a breath of fresh air, constantly refreshing and invigorating. Every moment with you is a surprise to me and that's intriguing because I don't like stories where I can guess what's going to happen next. I love your clumsy, anxious self and I find it sexy..."
At that moment he had me by the reference to a book. I leaned in closer as my heart melted with his touching words.
"...I love how you have chosen your own path in life and you know exactly what you want outta the life you've been given. You're strong, full of positive energy that pulls others to you, yet you're exceptionally perceptive and compassionate to all you encounter. You are the most overwhelmingly spirited person I have ever met in my life. Laughter is something I can always find when I'm around you and I'd be crazy not to as you to take a chance on me."

Friday, February 2, 2018

Sneak Peek Friday: #loveyoumore

Woohoo, it's my favorite month of the year...
.... February!!!

I love this month because it has my favorite holiday...
VALENTINE'S DAY!!

Since I call this the month of love, I'll be sharing a lot more about #loveyoumore to celebrate. 

Welcome to the first Sneak Peek Friday of the month. 
Enjoy!!



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The rest of the day went by well. Tyler and I hung out, talking and catching up on the past few weeks. While we were in the middle of watching a movie, the doorbell sounded throughout the house.
"Expecting someone?" Tyler asked.
"No, no idea who it is. I'll be back." I said as I headed for the door.
"Hi," I said as I opened the door without realizing who was there.
My mother and two sisters stood in front of me. I felt a bit of panic due to the fact that I told them in the past about Tyler but they hadn't actually met him yet. Growing up, my sister's were loud, energetic, and extremely honest. There wasn't a filter on their mouths, which worried me. I had no idea if Tyler would be ready for this bunch, yet.
"Coffee on?" my mom asked.
"No, but I can fix that," I answered. "Come in. I was just watching a movie with Tyler." I said, giving them the hint that I wasn't alone and praying that they wouldn't do anything to embarrass me.
"Oh.. he's here?" Audra asked surprised. "Well... perfect timing. Where's he at?"
"Yeah, he's in the living room. Be nice and don't scare him off." I warned.
Disregarding my warning, my sister's headed off to the living room. Taking a deep breath, I followed. "Tyler, I'd like you to meet my sisters, Jen and Audra," I said, pointing to each as I said their names.
I wasn't sure what to expect when it came to these two. Jen was a bit of a workaholic. She always had her strawberry blonde hair in a low ponytail to keep it out of her face. She was short with a thicker build. Her hazel eyes scanned the room as she took a seat in a chair adjacent to the couch. Audra always had anger issues and tend to fly off at the mouth. The smallest thing could rub her the wrong way, sending her into a fury of irritation. Most of the time, she would complain of those who mistreated her and would party herself into a stupor. Once she pulled herself together, she would do it again. With her strong spirit and personality, she'd date guys who were just like her; control freaks and be surprised when things went wrong. After several weeks of dating, the two would break it off, leaving her bewildered; wondering what exactly it was that caused another relationship to abruptly end.
She followed closely behind Jen and took the seat at the other end of the couch. Her light brown hair falling toward her face as she got comfortable; sitting with one leg down on the floor and the other tucked snugly underneath her.
"I'm Audra," she said, her green eyes staring at him. "Nice to meet you."
"Likewise," Tyler replied with a nod and repositioned himself on the couch.
"I'm Jen." she said, waving a bit before continuing, "I'm the sucky older sister who works too much to come visit."
With a laugh, Tyler replied, "It's nice to meet you too."
"Okay...now that we got the introduction out of the way. I have a question for you." Audra started and I rolled my eyes. I knew they wouldn't be able to resist giving him the third degree and battering him with questions.
"I'm an open book. Ask me anything."
"Colonia says you're a Marine who was in Iraq. Do you have any foreign diseases?"
With a chuckle, "No, I'm completely healthy." Tyler replied.
"Good, because I don't want you passing off any diseases to my sister that will kill her. Because then...you'd have to deal with me," she warned.
"Audra, really?" I asked, giving her a look to tell her to knock it off.
I loved the fact that my sisters loved me enough to protect me, but at times, they could be a bit overprotective. I knew I would always be able to count on them. If my world was falling apart, they would be the ones I'd want by my side. They take control and are quick on their feet. They tend to cover every angle, helping to fix whatever was amiss, and stay right there by my side until everything was back in order. They always offered a shoulder to cry on and wouldn't leave me standing alone until I was good. They never rode on any mistakes I had made in the past. Once I was back on track, the crisis was over, never to be mentioned again. Once the storm had passed, their tolerance would go back to the way it was and I'd be the middle child once again. Jen would go back to being the woman who worked too hard, bringing in the money, while Audra went back to her impulsive ways.
"Sorry, I have to ask," she said with a shrug of her shoulders.
My mom chose the right moment to walk back into the room, "Coffee ready?" she asked as she looked at the side stand.
"Ohhhh, shoot!!" I said as I jumped up from my seat beside Tyler. "I'm sorry. I forgot. I'll get it now." I said, thankful for a moment to regroup myself and breathe.
My anxiety was getting to me as I waited for the coffee to finish brewing. I had been a ball of nerves, afraid my sisters were going to be a bit rough on Tyler. I took my time adding the crème and sugar while stirring it. I took a deep breath and headed back into the room with everyone else.
"Where did you go for that coffee?" Mom joked as I handed her the cup.
"Be careful. It's hot." I warned.
Tyler had been in mid-conversation and I quietly listened to him finish. It seemed as if he was telling them how life was for him when it came to visiting other countries. All seemed well and it looked as if Jen and Audra had relaxed a bit.
When Audra settled back into her chair, she smiled. "Sounds like it'd be exciting to travel the world and see different things." She peered my way, face reassuring me that she was going to behave.
"Oh, Japan! Really?" Jen asked surprised.
"Yes, really!" Tyler answered. "It was an amazing experience. Visiting Japan was, by far, my favorite place. I found it pretty cool that they include English on their signs and whatnot, in addition to Kanji.
"Bet it made things a bit easier for you?" My mom questioned.
"It did, but I had a few friends that spoke both languages and interpreted what I couldn't read. I was stationed in Okinawa, which was quite a peaceful place. It was an amazing opportunity to gain life experience while learning about another culture. I missed being home but it was well worth it.
"What was it like living half a world away from where you grew up?" Jen asked.
"Well, it was fun watching the higher ranked guys drive in a right-hand drive car on the opposite side of the road." Tyler smiled at the memory.
"Right-hand drive?" Audra asked confused.
"Basically the steering wheel is on the right side of the car instead of on the left like we have here."
"Ohhhh!! I bet that was weird at first to see." Jen chimed in.
"Absolutely. I thought it was pretty cool."
"Was the food gross?" Audra asked, shifting the direction of our the conversation.
"It's really not much different than the food we have here. Just the texture of some of it is different. The best part was the warm weather all year around. Who could complain about that?"
"I'd spend all my time on the beach. I'm a beach girl." Jen said. "How different are the stores and stuff there?"
"I had access to most everything you can find here in stores. There was some stuff that wasn't available but I didn't go without. Especially, when my grandmother constantly sent me packages."
"Sounds like it was a nice experience." My mom said. "My coffee's gone. You guys about ready?" she asked my sisters.
Jen jumped up, "Yep," she said, while Audra followed suit.
After we said our goodbye's, Tyler and I finished our movie while cuddling on the couch. The visit with my family wasn't as bad as I thought. However, the anticipation of hearing their opinion on Tyler had me apprehensive.


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